"Sometimes things need to be said, and they need to be said, because you’re finally ready to say them! This is a continuing series about "A really long relationship with a really wrong person." - Michael
"Packaging up a previous nightmare to make room for the rest of your life wasn’t easy. I promised myself to let the process move at it’s own speed. When I was ready, I would ship off the old crap from the relationship nightmare that my ex created for me over 18 years. I also realized part of what I needed was to make sure every person along the original route would finally know the truth whether it was via this blog, or other means. Unlike my past eighteen years with him, this would no longer be his continuous abusive surprise package. The truth has been recently packaged on my terms because I was finally ready for everyone to know."
71. When he is willing to physically abuse you in hopes that he and his newest boyfriend will get you to leave quicker.
72. When you learn that his lies and deceptions reach far beyond you and include his job and his family.
73. When he has taken more pornographic pictures of himself over 18 years than pictures of the two of us as a couple.
74. When he doesn’t want to hold your hand anymore.
75. When in the end he makes it clear he would rather see you dead, then see you at all.
This is a my personal life for almost 18 years and my continuing series of 1000 Reasons To Leave Him. The trick is to find out before it’s too late and not to close your eyes because you are blinded by how much you love him. Don’t let him use you, take advantage of you, or isolate you. Don't let him manipulate you into staying. Don't let him wear you down so that your self-worth becomes so low you feel like you have no choices. And don’t remain silent because you’re afraid.
Todays Advice: Keep a Diary! - It's an outlet, it's way to feel not quite as lonely, and when you finally get out of the nigthmare, it's a great way to look back and clearly see why there were 1000 reasons to leave him!
You’ll find that some of my 1000 reasons are written with some sarcastic humor and most are so unbelievable that not an ounce of humor could be attached. However, they’re all based on real life, a really long relationship with a really wrong person. Trying to understand what happened may not be easy, and the recovery from a long, abusive, deceptive relationship is a difficult journey. BUT, TODAY I CAN SEE BETTER!
Putting your thoughts in print is empowering. So, read them, talk about them, or laugh or cry about them. Share them with someone you know that could possibly use them. But, I think you’ll agree, they should never happen again, not to me, not to you, and especially not to anyone that you profess to truly love.